Thursday, January 17, 2008


Thanks so much for the encouragement yesterday. It's hard to describe exactly why I feel as though I haven't been serving my readers well here. I like to write things that generate some sort of thought but I've come to realize that my own level of depletion is such, it's a wonder I'm getting out of bed in the morning, let alone intellectually stimulating other people!

Some evidence: Yesterday, I spent most of the day flat on my back because I heard a news story that so upset me that all my muscles tensed up and I was in pain. Not ache. Pain.

My patience level is nil. Whether it's someone talking too loud, minor things going wrong, my system response time being too slow or any other minor frustration, I get angry.

The things I've enjoyed doing on a daily basis are irritating me.

I really, really need this trip. It isn't frivolous or self-indulgent. It almost feels critical at this point. I need to go home. Like ET, I just want to go home.

It's hard to describe to someone who doesn't experience it what this environment does to me. And I'm not going to turn this post into a whinefest about it. (I'm out of cheese and crackers.) Those who know.. get it.

I'm hoping I will be able to access this blog from there. If I can, I will try to post a few times a week. Sometimes I will just offer a pretty picture and a quote. Other times, I'll tell all of you what's going on as my cup fills up and I am restored. The first few days will be reconnecting with S, eating and resting. I will be staying at his house.

I'll be erratic here for the next week or so. I'm leaving Tuesday night. Until then, I'm trying to get prepared which is actually rather simple since I'm taking very little.

So.. until next week when I'll "see" you from Thailand, I want to wish all of you a wonderful few weeks. Thank you so much for continually supporting me, trying to understand me and for encouraging me to keep the site. :)

แลวเจอกัน - May you be well and happy.

~*

27 comments:

slouching mom said...

I hope you have a wonderful, restorative time.

Safe travels.

Sober Briquette said...

I hope we can hear from you when you're there, but if not, I'm sure it will be worth the wait. Hang on until then!

heartinsanfrancisco said...

It will be wonderful for us if you are able to post from there. You will be greatly missed, and I, for one, will be waiting with great eagerness for your reports from the front.

Have a wonderful, safe and restorative trip home, ET.

Aliki2006 said...

I can't wait to read you from Thailand! And I hope the trip is everything you *know* it will be! :)

QT said...

Have a wonderful time, chani. I am so excited for you~

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Mariposa said...

Have a safe trip...and wish you wonderful time!

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

Enjoy and let your cup fill up.

the psycho therapist said...

"Travelin' mercies".

I couldn't be happier for you.
Yea, you!

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flutter said...

travel home, friend

Julie Pippert said...

I am currently extremely familiar with the feeling of which you speak.

I am glad you have Thailand coming around the corner for you. It definitely sounds like just the thing.

Anonymous said...

spent most of the day flat on my back because I heard a news story - what a mess this world would be if we all lived like you!

thailandchani said...

Hey, Anonymous of Bartlesville, Oklahoma. It's always such a pleasure to see you and your snarky comments.

It's apparent that you don't like this site and probably haven't been writing home about me, either.

Given that, why don't you just get lost? Why read a site you don't like?

I would treat you with respect if you weren't too chickenshit to at least use your real name or login. Instead, you hide behind "Anonymous". That shows a complete lack of courage or integrity.

Just go away. I owe you no explanations.


~Chani

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Sashiko said...

Anonymous, what a world this would be if everyone were like YOU. What kind of ill-wired brain would compel a person to deliberately insult someone you don't even know, whose blog you are not forced to read at gunpoint, just to what -- spread around your own bitterness?

I'm sorry, but we're voting you off the island.

TIV: the individual voice said...

It's very common for sensitive people stressed to the max or depressed to be shaken by things on the news. If more people were more sensitive to the horrors of the world, we wouldn't have wars and murders and evil in the first place. There are times in my own life when I feel I have to shield myself from news overload. I take what is happening in the world very personally. And well we all should, to whatever degrees we can tolerate, balancing connection with the pain of the world with our own need for self-protection. Chani, I'm glad you didn't just trash that comment and responded instead. Now THAT shows courage.

Angela said...

Happy trails, Chani.

Carla said...

I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful time.

jen said...

home. you are off to visit your home. nothing sounds better. safe travels and peaceful wishes.

SUEB0B said...

Here's a visual present for you:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/11302994@N00/2198401545/

A lovely Bodhisattva that I fell in love with in San Diego.

Travel light and journey lightly.

Amy Y said...

I know exactly how you feel, though Thailand isn't where I call home (I'd sure love to see it though!). Sometimes the "real world" just doesn't cut it and you need to go reconnect and find yourself again.

I hope it's everything you hope for and more!

And I, too, think anonymous from OK is a big fat poopy head :) I'd vote him off the island too!

Mary said...

What a jerk. They say that 5% of the earth's population are assholes. You found one.

I wish you peace, rest, and lots of smiles during your trip. Please travel safely. We'll be here when you get back.

Mary

AmyTree said...

Peace and rest be with you - I know how exciting an impending departure can be - have a fantastic time!!!

gumdropsandbubblethoughts said...

Have a wonderful time, Chani...

blooming desertpea said...

I wish a safe and restorative trip, one where you find the peace and whatever else your soul needs ...

Kelly said...

Bon voyage. Be well.

Catherine said...

I'm late on this one...but I AM hoping you have a wonderful, soul soaking time. I hope it is all you hope, and all you need - even when those things aren't always the same thing.