Monday, March 08, 2010

Lagniappe


    This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish clod of ailments complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy...I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. (George Bernard Shaw)


Lots of lessons being learned here.

There are some basics, things that are probably insignificant to others but huge for me.

I have seen the cycle of reciprocity in my own life of late. The energy exchange is now something I understand on a personal level as well as an intellectual one. While dialectics in the scientific sense have always appealed to my intellectual/logical mind, it never made sense on a personal, individual principle in my own life.

Quite some time back, I prayed to understand it. I wanted to know how it felt to give and get, both in the negative and the positive. If I was lacking in generosity, I wanted to know how to fix that. One might say that I considered it to be essential to my own growth. However, I wanted to see what it would be like to take it out of the intellect and put it into the spirit.

The abundance that has come my way has been almost astounding. And it has all been in very practical, tangible ways. I'm far too cynical to believe perception is reality or that wishes and hopes manifest. What I believe is solid intel. Give me the facts, the figures, the final outcome. All the rest is pixie dust.

God, in his/her/its infinite wisdom knows this about me. I'm Doubting Thomas on steroids.

The first literal manifestation came from a friend a few months ago. "I know you are struggling with the deposit you need to get your teeth done. My husband and I have talked it over and decided to give you that money. You don't need to pay it back." Paraphrased, that is what was said.

Knock me over with a feather! I thought perhaps I was having auditory hallucinations!

I noticed that people began responding to my efforts at friendship. They reciprocated. I've gone from three contacts on my cell phone to thirty. And this isn't the equivalent of collecting Facebook friends. These are real people who call me and I call them. I spend more time on the phone now than I did when I was a teenager!

In my apartment search, I've had some problems because of credit issues. Some things went south and I have some accounts in collections. Sometimes that is just how it goes. It's not that I don't want to pay those things. It's not willful negligence. It's something that often happens when people become disabled. You choose between fundamental survival and the luxury of reputation.

Don't get me wrong. I hate what the credit issues have done to my reputation. I hate being viewed as a flake when it's simply not the case. FICO scores do not define character. They can be telling of many other things though. They can tell of sudden unexpected illnesses. They can tell of job losses. They can tell of failing capabilities. Sometimes they can tell of someone who has willfully run up a bunch of debt and walked away from it. The one thing they can not gauge is character.

Anyway, like it or not, I have to deal with the surface judgments from those who would rather see me in a negative way than to look at my personal situation. It's something I simply have to accept.

Once again, a friend came to the rescue. She'd told me she would pay the deposit which was extraordinary due to the aforementioned issue. I didn't take it too seriously because people say all kinds of things. Follow-through isn't always as forthcoming. I'm a "trust but verify" kind of gal.

When I went into the office this morning, she'd already sent the moneygram. I asked her to do it that way because I don't want any suspicion that I pulled a fast one - or was trying to get money, just to get money so I asked her to send it directly to the apartment complex. I saw the moneygram with my own eyes. She came through.

The payback terms are very reasonable and something I can do with little negative impact on my monthly budget.

All of this makes me want to be in the world, doing more, giving more, sharing more. It's that spiritual dialectic that had alluded me for so many years. This doggone give-and-take principle can actually work for me, too! I honestly believe this is a power greater than myself, showing me the principle in a way that I can internalize.

The interesting thing, for the record, is that neither of these people who have so generously offered their financial assistance are members of the family I have been helping for the past several years.

Isn't that something!


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17 comments:

Mary G said...

It's wonderful almost to the point of tears how many generous and caring people that there are in the world. Quiet, unasuming and reaching a hand out when one is neeeded. I'm so glad you have such friends; you deserve them, by what I can see of you.

Anvilcloud said...

That's amazingly wonderful, Chani. The world seems to be opening up for you.

Leann said...

Isn't the Universe an incredible thing??!! I am a firm believer that what you put out into the world comes back to you three fold. It is so nice to see that people care enough to help you out.

Blessings Chani ~

Jane said...

I've had very similar things going on in my life too. I've been in a very deep state of self-awareness for a few months now. It's either that or continue to play all of the horribly dysfunctional tapes I've been playing for over 20 years. I've always felt a calling to serve and give. Now that I have a lot of free time, I've been volunteering in a nursing home once a week. The giving feeling is amazing. Like you, I ask for it all, good or bad, so that I can experience it and learn and grow. Two weeks ago I was trying to learn from anger. I just couldn't get past the fact that other people are so inconsiderate while I always try to consider others feelings first. Then this morning I opened my email and saw this:
"It is important to understand that you probably won't gain an advantage over others by having an open heart.

All that is going to happen is that you will live in a higher state of consciousness while you walk through this world.

That's it. And that's enough."

Gail said...

Hi-

I always believed that what "goes around comes around" and/or "you get back from the Universe what you put in to the Universe". Looks like this post of yours re-enforces my beliefs beautifully. :-)
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Love to you
Gail
peace......

Molly said...

SO glad to hear that things are finally coming up roses for you Chani!

Syd said...

Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my blog. I really appreciate that.
I am glad that you got your deposit and will be able to move.

heartinsanfrancisco said...

Sooner or later we all learn that we need other people, but often not in the ways we expected. I am happy that your own generosity has begun to come home to roost, but not surprised because that is the law of karma without any of the la-la New Age silliness that so often accompanies it.

painted maypole said...

How wonderful! I bet your step is lighter these days.

I have always loved that GBS quote. And Lagniappe is a concept I learned here in NOLA, and just love it.

BTW, love the new picture youre leaving behind with your comments... fun!

Mauigirl said...

That's wonderful! I do believe we get from life what we put into it - and it sounds as if you are reaping some of the rewards of your own generosity of spirit.

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

This is a wonderful post. I love reading about these types of experiences about about the impact they are having on you. It's so encouraging to see positive forces at work in our lives.

And I'm pleased that you are moving on to a new living situation. I know this one has been difficult.

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