Finding My Way Home

Thanks so much for the encouragement yesterday. It's hard to describe exactly why I feel as though I haven't been serving my readers well here. I like to write things that generate some sort of thought but I've come to realize that my own level of depletion is such, it's a wonder I'm getting out of bed in the morning, let alone intellectually stimulating other people!

Some evidence: Yesterday, I spent most of the day flat on my back because I heard a news story that so upset me that all my muscles tensed up and I was in pain. Not ache. Pain.

My patience level is nil. Whether it's someone talking too loud, minor things going wrong, my system response time being too slow or any other minor frustration, I get angry.

The things I've enjoyed doing on a daily basis are irritating me.

I really, really need this trip. It isn't frivolous or self-indulgent. It almost feels critical at this point. I need to go home. Like ET, I just want to go home.

It's hard to describe to someone who doesn't experience it what this environment does to me. And I'm not going to turn this post into a whinefest about it. (I'm out of cheese and crackers.) Those who know.. get it.

I'm hoping I will be able to access this blog from there. If I can, I will try to post a few times a week. Sometimes I will just offer a pretty picture and a quote. Other times, I'll tell all of you what's going on as my cup fills up and I am restored. The first few days will be reconnecting with S, eating and resting. I will be staying at his house.

I'll be erratic here for the next week or so. I'm leaving Tuesday night. Until then, I'm trying to get prepared which is actually rather simple since I'm taking very little.

So.. until next week when I'll "see" you from Thailand, I want to wish all of you a wonderful few weeks. Thank you so much for continually supporting me, trying to understand me and for encouraging me to keep the site. :)

แลวเจอกัน - May you be well and happy.

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