Saturday, January 05, 2008

Stormy Weather....

Yesterday was a wild day! Most of the day, we were without power since a storm came through the area. Winds up to 67 MPH in some places, heavy rain and flooding. It was a real mess.

While I sat in the dark, I thought quite a bit about the people who didn't have anywhere to go, to escape that. When I went out to survey the damage to the house (which was fairly extensive but not irreparable), the wind was blowing me around ~ and I'm not a small girl. I can't imagine how they fared. Where did they hide to get away from it? Where did they stay warm? Where did they eat? The power was out nearly all over the entire city.

I also thought of something else far less socially conscious.

The storm reminded me of Thailand. I sat through a storm there one night that blew the windows open, blew motor scooters down the street and blanketed us in a thick hard rain that was like nothing I'd ever experienced.

It was a bit scary because we simply had no defenses against it. The storm was going to do what it was going to do. We were powerless against it.

And I'd be willing to go through that again .. to be there.

I came to the conclusion that I do need to touch base there again.

ET Wants To Go Home.

For a long time, I've tried to make it here as much as possible. The truth is though that the clothes, the furniture, the jewelry, the art, the food.. It isn't enough. There's something about being where I am understood without effort, being where I feel as though my daily life is satisfying and full, being where everything seems to fit, strongly drawing me back. Being a stranger in a strange land, even though people are certainly very nice to me and my life is hardly wretched, still takes its toll.

Balanced against the obligations I've voluntarily taken on here, I know I need to come back. And I will.

But I need that dirt beneath my feet, that air in my lungs, those people around me. I really need it. I'm hungry for it.

So.. credit cards be damned. I'm going. I'm not exactly sure of the dates yet but it will be reasonably soon.

Thanks for all your input yesterday.
:)

~*

29 comments:

flutter said...

You feel light, this is good.

Jen of A2eatwrite said...

I'm glad you had some clarity. I'm sorry about your storm situation. I know in our own power outage that we were blessed to have someplace to go, finally.

meno said...

Those storms have a way of reminding us how little we can control our environment. I'm glad you are safe.

SUEB0B said...

Yes, as I was standing at the gas station last night watching the rain pour and the wind blow, I too gave thanks to have a warm home to go to.

I am glad you are off to the place you feel most at home. Enjoy every minute.

Dandelion seeds said...

I am still looking for that 'home'. thank you for sharing your story of how it can be found (or will find you)

jen said...

i can attest many had it worse, but that doesn't make it any better, either...i am SO glad you are going. so, so, so glad. you need this, this restorative prelude.

liv said...

yay for going! i hope you will find a way to go and keep in touch. also, glad you made it through the storm.
xoxo

Kikipotamus said...

As for up and going to Thailand, all I can say is this. Life is not a dress rehearsal.

anne said...

Glead to hear you made it through the storm ok. And that you have come to a decision on your plans.

How exciting! I'm very happy for you.

Jodi said...

yea! you're going! I'm so glad you decided to go.

heartinsanfrancisco said...

It's time.

I totally support your decision to go. Just as we have little control over life's storms, we have little control over where our soul finds its home. And when it speaks to us strongly, as yours has, we can do no less than to honor it.

Safe trip -- and write!

Sober Briquette said...

how exciting for you!

Mariposa said...

Heartsinsanfrancisco already said my piece...and she did it beautifully! ;)

I'm happy and excited for you...will you still be online while you're there? Well, I can wait...but it would be good to hear from you too while you're there.

Have a nice weekend!

realitytesting said...

And I am so happy for you!

realitytesting said...

And I am so happy for you!

Rebecca said...

Bravo on having such clarity. I wanted to comment yesterday and say, "Go! By all means, GO!" It may be that part of your process with making this transition is to remind yourself about how wonderful you feel when you are there. While it's possible to surround yourself with things that remind you of Thailand, a good stiff dose of the culture will make it sink into your bones in an even deeper way.

Blessed be! Life is good
Rebecca

painted maypole said...

glad to hear you are going. :)

TIV: the individual voice said...

Chani: It just seems that your heart is so there and not here. We have only one life (at least I think so.)

Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

I find it interesting what thoughts storms and winds can arouse. Yes, you need to touch base with you homeland, just as Dorothy needed to return to Kansas from Oz. Storms and winds can awaken many needs.

Rima said...

Chani - your happiness is shining through the computer! Sounds like you made the right decision ;)

Anvilcloud said...

Good for you.

Julie Pippert said...

I'm glad you found your decision. it sounds so good. You sound good. :)

Christine said...

go chani, GO!!!!!



Running on empty

Carla said...

Yep, it really sounds like you need to be back in Thailand. I'm sure you will figure out a way to be there.

Aliki2006 said...

I can feel the power of your decision from over here! Yay!

Can't wait to hear more...

QT said...

Like everyone says - just having made the decision seems to have lightened your mood.

I am so happy for you.

Catherine said...

Wow! Going! Soon! I feel your excitement rising in myself. Just so long as you take us with you...

(and when can we schedule a visit? :)

Ian Lidster said...

Good for you. That's what you must do, so I am happy you've made the decision.

AmyTree said...

When you are called, you have to go! Embrace it - some things are meant to be. :-) xx